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The northern downpour sends its love,

for some odd reason, i really feel the need to blog right now.
OK SO. CURRENTLY I AM;
- - - drinking straight out of a 3.78 liter bottle of arizona. its the heaviest thing, EVER. but most satisfying : ) screw alcohol, green tea +ginger<- wtf? i mean *GINSENG/ and honey. and occasionally, lemon tea!
- - - listening to northern downpour by panic at the disco ♥ "I know the world's a broken bone but melt your headaches,call it home. " (Why did they ever take out the ! after panic. it was so much cooler that way ) i think this is going to be my next overplayed song .
- - - trying VERY VERY hard to stay awake ... i took an allnighter last night, no idea why. it was just pore (gosh there i go again) *POOR judgement, really. gosh i'm making so many typos. T^T everytime i blink, i struggle to get them open again. yes that is how tired i am. for some reason, as i type this and read it to myself in my head, everything is coming out in a british accent.. odd, yes quite odd. the harry potter movies are getting to me... *~*
well anways, today was such a mellow day.
i watched tv for about 4 hours : 1 - 5AM. infomercials mostly. then i went for a jog @6. it was the earliest id been up all summer. the sunrise was beautiful : ) unfortunately, that will be the only time i'll get to see it since the only way i'll be up that early is by pulling an allnighter.. (besides 0 period next year of course) and no, never again, allnighters. im way too exhausted. how longs it been? 31 sleepless hours.. i feel FANTASTIC sal;dfkjas;l. and then, after my jog, i made myself a cozy little breakfast :o) scambled eggs+ham, french toast w/just a hint of butter and a fresh banana and ripe apple~♥ it was scrumptious, esp having been made ALL BY MYSELF! : ) -pats self on back - after breakfast, i had nothing to do so i actually cleaned up the house. i know right. me. cleaning. WDDAFXUP? well yeah, now the kitchen and my room are spotless. then i sat on the computer for the rest of the day. yep. pret-ty exciting.

I REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY LOVE BROWSING LOOKBOOK♥

i simply adore that look,, laced sweetheart top and leopard shorts put together w/ a gold rimmed belt , topped off with a coral ring / gold bangles /+ charm bracets. lovely~
g o a l f o r s o p h o m o r e y e a r : G E T I N T O L O O K B O O K .

hmm.. the weather's quite nice outside, i think i'll go for a bike ride on my flying bison, appa : ) toodles~

it's a simple thing

as i surf blogger and read other people's posts, i can't help but wish everyone would just CHILL.

sunday post

for some reason, i have this huge urge to watch

YES MAN.
i really loved that movie, it taught me a lot. " all the bad stuff will lead to something good " i've been holding onto that thought a lot more recently and for now its enough to get me through the week. hopefully the cinema isnt lying to me again like it did with the spongebob movie -_- ...

so today, blah blah blah typical sunday boring snoooooze lag lag lag. HMMM this is my first blog of the summer.. i really need to revive my love for blogging , again (♥)

i really need a job!, my future baby dont come cheap ];

♥ ♥ ♥ ~ SO BEAUTIFUL. $164 T___T . i hate my life.
BUT JUST A LITTLE BIT LONGER, RIGHT CHELLE?! D:

well anyway, the last few days have been chilllllllllllllll / fun in the sun (8

there is no place i'd rather be than on a surfboard out at sea ♥
i'm really looking forward to our annual HAKT beach trips. its already day 11 and we havent gone yet!^%$#@
wellllllllls, this was a boring post -_-

hopefully, this week will be better. TOODLES (=

(10:15:14 PM): Goodnight<3
^ it bothers me how that made my heartbeat quicken ;/

a rocket to the moon

I'm trusting you and I'm taking the long way home. I'm leaving and it's not because of you, will you just hold me tight and never let me go? I know this whole thing's wrong but baby, we're invincible.

things to let out

HI WORLD.
IT'S BEEN A WHILE.

**(just sneezed) i like sneezing, dont you?

i think
i need
to getaway.

"throw it away, forget yesterday, we'll make the great escape"♥

long week, tough week. just a very hard five days. but its almost ending now,just one more night of going through hell and back. i miss the way things were three months ago. things are pretty shitty right now but im hanging in there . JUST 9 MORE DAYS! hopefully, next year will be better.
OH AND --
DEAR BITCH, first things first, i dont really care what you think of me anymore. if you wanna hate me, then by all means hate me. BUT CAN YOU PLEASE LEARN TO KEEP YOUR SHIT TO YOURSELF ? let people form their own opinions about me. you take your shit talking way overboard, and quite frankly, im getting sick of it. my name aint a dick, so keep it out of your mouth.

k my mind is empty enough to go to bed now .

sunday.

messin around with the cam at konnie's house .

wtfxup

with me lately. seriously. this is a side of me that i don't know .

- being a bitch.
- never smiling, let alone laughing.
- pushing people away.
- not apologizing.

i see what i'm doing, i see who im hurting and i'm still not doing anything about it .
maybe its just a phase.. well if it is, i can't wait to get over it
i'm not healthy right now. this is not a well-being state of mind.
i'm losing everything, everyone, I'M LOSING IT. i am pushing away the ones i need most. my stupid pride is getting in the way of whats really important.
save me..

maxin relaxin

well today was completely uncalled for. i dont know why i broke down like that, never again will i show that type of weakness ! >:) this depression phase has got to stop. your mental health affects your physical health; that explains why i almost fainted this morning in choir ): this has gotten way too out of hand. since when did losing a couple friends mean my whole life is over ? whatever, "just get back up when it knocks you down" <3


hehehhe <3

i'm losing you and it's effortless.

everything is going wrong. i have no idea what to do at this point.

vent

person #1 : you're starting to annoy me. A LOT. you're so damn ignorant and stubborn. i wonder why im still putting up with you. you make me so mad that i want to cry, but i promised myself : no more crying over you. so i guess ill just bottle everything up until it overflows .

person #2: you do not know when to shut up, really. you try too hard. you're so obnoxious, its not even funny anymore. its funny how you say you have "trust issues" when you tell the whole damn world about your problems. i have gradually lost total trust in you, and its for the better. you were never to be trusted in the first place. fucking big mouth

hey dad

i'm writing to you not to tell you that i still hate you, just to ask you how you feel.. and how this fell apart, how we fell apart. are you happy out there in this great wide world? do you think about your past? do you miss your little girl?.. when you lay your head down, how do you sleep at night? do you even wonder if we're alright? but we're alright.. yeah, we're alright.
it's been a long hard road without you by my side. you broke my mother's heart, you broke your child in ways you never imagined . it's not okay, but we're alright.
and sometimes, i'll forgive.
and this time, i'll admit..
that i miss you .


------------

you pull me closer to love

(5:24:36 PM): There is so much I want to say,
but all I could do is hope for that chance.
Although there are many uncertanties,
I just have to find my way.

There are so many difficult situations.
But because of you, a smile is still meant to be.
You made me realize that love has no limitations,
and that there is much more than I could see.

Before I couldn't really understand.
But because of you, I'm able to learn.
Always hoping to create our happiness,
I feel there's nothing I can withstand.

To go through our life's experiences,
under any kind of circumstances.
There's so much I want to do.
It's just I wish it was with you.

Because of you, I could finally find myself again.
I try my best because it's you who keeps me going on.
Although there's nothing I can guarantee,
I just hope you know how much you mean to me.

^man. i wish i knew more people like you. you are simplicity at its boldest, rare to find these days .

aint he beastly? :') vvv

that's matthew goli. i really like his photographs, they have meanings that you have to actually think to comprehend . i heard you learn something new everyday, i wonder what i learned this sunday. wellll .whatever it was, it wasn't what i had hoped to know.

for the longest time i thought i was the question mark, turns out you were the mysterious one.

tick tock tick tock . why is the clock so loud? its like a booming unneccesary (wtf did i spell that right?) reminder of the so little time i have left. the months, they dont matter, it's the days i cant take. when the hours move to minutes, and now im seconds away. i've got 37 days, and i plan on making them count.

take me somewhere..

so i've been pacing around for the past few days, thinking about our conversation and what to do next.

i know you think this is will be better for the both of us, but i dont think it will.
i know you wont break my heart.
you know i won't break yours. lets give it a shot?

you know what. we're going to make this work.
this is not like other relationships.
WE'RE NOT LIKE EVERYONE ELSE.
holding on, like its all i have. don't fail me now .

37 MORE DAYS

"time passes. even when it seems impossible."

so today, i ate a gold rush roll and thought of you.

i wonder why im still holding on. maybe im just stupid. no scratch that, i AM just stupid. oh well its just a phase . i cant wait to get over it. i should probably get to bed STUPID CST'S ! fuck you, highschool.
boys like girls - thunder ♥

THE VISION.

You need to know that rescue is possible, that freedom is possible , that God is still in the business of redemption . we're seeing it happen. We're seeing lives change as people get the help they need. People sitting across from a counselor for the first time. People stepping into treatment. in desperate moments, people calling a suicide hotline. we know that the first step to recovery is the hardest to take . We want to say here that its worth it , that your life is worth fighting for, that it's possible to change.

The vision is that hope and help would replace secrets and silence.

The vision is people putting down guns and blades and bottles.

The vision is that we can reduce the suicide rate in america and around the world.

The vision is that we would learn what it means to love our friends and that we would love ourselves enough to get the help we need.

The vision is the possibility that your best days are ahead.

The vision is the possibility that we're more loved than we'll ever know.

The vision is hope, and hope is real.

You are not alone, and this is not the end of your story.
hang in there, I believe in you..

THINGS TO LET OUT

this is a waste of my time . i need to realize that i have more important things to deal with than you and your bullshit. everyday, seven takes of the same old scene. everynight, i sit waiting for your call. "im sad. i'm angry. i'm desperate for your voice." waiting for your next excuse for losing sleep again. i decided we weren't going to speak so why are we up 3 AM on the phone? this isn't going anywhere. we're just running around in circles; a never ending shitstorm . honey, you're just all talk and talk and talk and talk. PLEASE lets just knock it off. im done. you're done. lets just stop, drop everything, and walk away. you've got your new friends, welll ive got homies.

but in the end, its still so lonely.

to infinity... AND BEYOND!

today was fun. my hair smells like salt, and strangely i do not mind.

ahhh, hb its been way too long. it was nice seeing you again, be back in the summer




I'M ON THE VERGE OF EXTINCTION. SOS ANYONE ?!?!
hello there, how you doing, ive got all these thoughts just floating through my brain . they bump and they collide and cause a flurry of confusion and it's getting on my nerves. i try to hold myself together, but i cant (sometimes, i do) but this shitstorm's never ending and the atmospheric pressure's calling for rain. this is what i've got going on this, is where i belong tonight.
it's chaos in the courthouse and the left side's all upset because the right side wants a summer home but knows we cant afford it. i try to mediate between this constant tug-of-war machine and wind up in a never ending game of telephone. there's so much going hard and i just need seven minutes to calm myself back down ! .. now i forgot where i was, was it me we were talking about? this is what i feared from the beginning, i keep falling apart.. i can't stand the thought of losing. this is where i run out of words that describe how im so damn hurt. this is where i fumble and fold and take what i'm told.
wait, what's going on? is this where i belong?

ill be okay, is that what you want me to say?

its called breakup, cause its broken

WEDNESDAY OF SPRING BREAK

wtfffffff? wednesday already? chiberous. i do not want this week to end. two reasons: I HATEHATE HATE HAT EH AaHAte hHATE hate hatE HATE HATE school. so much so much.
&secondly, its gonna be his last week /: DU MA FUCK. i miss him more than i should, it hurts more than its supposed to, and i find myself wishing for the same damn thing all over again. stupid girl, learn from your damn mistakes D:<
WELL ANYWAY, today i went to sharons again and then we went to BCCCCC yes da boiling crab. typical asians. and then we baked a cake for mybabysprinkles<3 kevin is so funny and full of love :D LMAO. omfg. mario kart on wii is fun.
<-- SI LMAO. i suckat it however. the best i got was fourth place out of .. o.o um. 12! fourth out of twelve. PUTA. so i walked past excelsior today. )': ah, elementary school those were the days. NAP TIME you never know what youve got til its gone. remember when youd make these cutelittle mailboxes on valentines day? and everyone would walk around and drop those drug storebought valentines? wtf so cute. i miss that. shiiiet. well anyways im off to sleep, big day tomorrow !

WE THINKS YOU DESERVE A THUMBS UP

rewind to last year

so today made me realize that i am wasting my time. wasting my time worrying about people i shouldnt even bother looking at, wasting my time kickin it with the wrong crowd, trusting the wrong people, leading the wrong life. I MISS THE WAY THINGS WERE LAST SPRING BREAK. when all that mattered was HAKT. back when we did whatever the hell we felt like doing, when there were no routines, we just kicked it and that was that. we didnt have a care in the world ..
stupid highschool, ruined everything .


k im gonna reminisce. LOL back when me and anthony would fight over the fucken bed"BITCH WHY YOU ALL UP IN MY GRILL GIMME SOME OF THAT BLANKET"
and seemingly endless sessions of super smash bros. brawl
and playing hide in seek in the pitch black dark , smashing shit in the process
wandering around for what felt like days and days .
and swimming everyday ! lmao @ anthony kevin and richmonds gay poolsex.
and OUR BEACH TRIPS!! those were pretty kickass.
and sitting on angela's roof
and sleeping in the backyard
when all we ate was pocky and instant ramen
when angela's house was our second home
WHEN KENNY ACTUALLY HAD TIME FOR US.
i hate how everything changed ):
i think today was the closest we'll ever get to "reuniting" . FML

let's go back yeah? VVVV

i <3 failblog

Fuck you, cleaning the fridge. How the hell do you get so dirty? I don't eat in there, I simply store food. What the fuck is that stain on the bottom shelf? Do gnomes have parties in here when I'm at work or something? Nasty little gnomes. And, for some reason, I feel really, really vulnerable when I'm bent over, scrubbing your gross shelves. Don't know why. So thank you for keeping my beer cold, but fuck you for making a mess of it.

Fuck you, paying bills. Every fucking month? Are you kidding me? I barely even watched TV this month, I still gotta shell out all that cash? And, while I'm at it, fuck your pathetic little late fees. They're small enough for me to easily ignore them but they add up over time. So thank you for the electricity, water and internet, but fuck you for your constant demands.

Fuck you, deleting old files from my computer. What man can make this decision? It's like choosing which of my kids to leave behind on the sinking ship. Fuck, this is killing me. I hate my old ass computer.

Fuck you, changing light bulbs. It's 2006, right? I was pissed when I wasn't issued a jetpack in 2000 (where's my fucking raygun?!?), but I figured by now technology would've at least advanced to the point where I don't have to stand on my wobbly chair and deal with this crap. Two bonus fuck yous: for scaring the crap out of me when I walk into a darkened room, innocently flick the switch and get momentarily blinded by that huge flash and terrifying pop! Also, for somehow convincing your lightbulb brethren to join you, causing a chain reaction that means I'm filled with fear whenever I turn on a light. Pop! Pop! Pop! What, did you all join in a suicide pact while I was asleep?
Bastards.

Fuck you, washing dishes. Yes, I know, you smell funny, and I know the longer I wait, the more weird slime stuff is just gonna accumulate on you. That's why I've pretty much switched to just using paper plates (fuck you, environment) and eating with my hands. I'm a caveman in an apartment.

Finally, fuck you, writing this rant.

kay lets see, what happened today..

1: holy shit its the day before spring break
2: i wore my lazy clothing
3: i brought my benchmark pillow with me today (:
4: i had beef ramen for breakfast AGAIN
5: i felt like tying my hair up but i didnt because i didnt want my hair to be in a shitstorm when i felt like taking it down
6: OWUT ITS ALLANS BIRTHDAY (: happy sweet sixteen kiddo
7: we had to do a birthday poem for viet class. i kept laughing -____-
8: the weather was nice at first wtf happened?
9: i rlly hate choir now :/
1o: i dread walking to third period. various reasons too long to explain
11: something smells like mango strawberry right now.
12: im listening to lucky (:
13: i finally looked him in the eye today, for the first time in a week.
14: afterschool was quite chill
15: i poured my heart and soul in a letter to richard LMAOOO. onlynotrlly
16: i got at least an hour and a half of sleep throughout the day (:
17: i met a guy named chris
18: chanel said i looked like a fob >;/ FUCK YOU im thug (:
19: i blasted my music way too loud in algebra.
2o: i think i did pretty damn well on my benchmarks dont you !?
21: anthony/ colby threw his pubes at me ! :'( this isnt over odonis >:O
22: joe did not keep his promise . :(
23: but he hugged me so im ok (:
24: i lost my badminton match
25: kevin bui and i matched clothingwise
26: i was stalking again without realizing it this time >;/
27: had to try very hard to resist the urge to beat someone with a cane (:
28: i am currently awaiting a phone call.
29: i still need to shower ! OH NOS
30: i am going to knotts tomorrow.

O WHAT A DAY
night kids

even though i know you don't want to,
tell me everything.
because, i can take it.
and i want to know what's on your mind.

always.

" Giving up doesn't always mean you're weak.
Sometimes, it means you're strong enough to let go. "

i have to stay away, no matter how badly i wanna talk to you.
i have to keep this up, no matter how hard it might be.

!@#$%^&*( PISSED

BEYOND IMAGINATION.
i can't believe you'd sink so low as to spread lies about me. what did i ever do to deserve this? i never did shit to your ass. looking back i put way too much energy in you and me i wish i could hit my head on something and forget i ever met you im not kidding i hate you so much right now you treated me like shit and i gave you all my fucking time and patience youre just another act in the freakshow so sucker upper star fucker cause im done giving a fuck.


sorry for the run on sentence.

allergic conjunctivitis

PINK EYE!!! PUTA >:O




... T____T

ITS THE BEST DAY EVAAAR

onlynotreally. oh man have i ever mentioned how much i hate sundays?
they are just a major LAGGGGGG
so today was FREEZING i slept way too much and i actually read twilight out of boredom
once again, i hate sundays hate hate hate hate HATE hate haaaate
my poor babyboo is sick ! im worried . i dont liike it when people are sick >:(
and he wants me to call him later too! i hope he's at school tomorrow , or monday will be even worse than it is already guaranteed to be.

FUCK......... i fucked up my earphones and now i have to buy new ones. shithead
i think i cuss way too much :( oh wells im not gonna stop anytime soon
my mouth feels funny from eating too much sour patch watermelons. but at the same time its a ... pleasant feeling. knowing that i ate sour patches today LOL :) havnt had some in forever!
i still need to shower, i feel dirtaaay.
ciara - never ever ; good song :) <3

HE WILL NEVA EVA NEVA EVA LUUUV YOU~

oh and postscript;
ALLANHOANG my everything, at the moment :)<3

you already had your chance.
don't ruin this for me.

what type of romance is this?

it's amazing how much things can change in just 5 days.
from shittiest i've been in a while, to the happiest i've been in months.

things are lookin' up
<3

"i just wasn't rude enough to push her away."

YES, IT HURTS.
so fucking much..

i thought everything between us was fine. i thought this was going the way we both wanted it to. i've been pacing back and forth, thinking about our conversation and where to go from here. i really don't know anymore. i honestly believed in you..
maybe i was naive. maybe i never really had a chance. i had so many dreams about you and me. so much for happy endings.

I HAAAAATE SUNDAYS
so.fucking.much.
i actually want monday to come already,there's something i must do tomorrow anyways.
so right now, me mum is bitching at me to get off the computer and get going already. but i dont wanna goo. i hate going to church now.
T__T but i must.

anyways i am finished giving a fuck

11:00 PM - 2:00 AM Phone with Allan.
2:00 AM - 3:00 AM Fall asleep on the phone.
3:00 AM - 2:00 PM Drag myself to bed, and knock out again.
2:00 PM Wake up.
2:00 PM - 3:43 PM Breakfast, computer, blah blah blaaah.
3:43 PM - 4:22 PM Shower/Get ready
4:22 PM - 4:35 PM Wait for Tania and Ammi to pick me up.
4:35 PM - 5:02 PM Drive to Bella Terra.
5:02 PM - 6:30 PM Dwell around
6:30 PM - 8:37 PM Jonas Brothers 3D concert with Tania. It SUUUCKED
8:37 PM - 9:02 PM Wait for Ammi to pick us up
9:02 PM - 9:25 PM Stater Brothers to stock up on junk food for Ammi
9:25 PM - 10:35 PM Sit on computer/Wait for Kenny to call me back

pretty gaay saturday.


you're doing it again. please just tell me straight out where you wanna go from here. i'm tired of waiting for you to make up your mind. tell me. tell me everything. i want to know what's on your mind..

YOU

are SO confusing. please please PLEEASE just make up your mind already. i'm getting sick of your constant whining and feeling sorry for yourself. i told you, you can do this. but your lack of confidence is just making it harder and harder on yourself. the only thing i can tell you at this point is that you have to belive things will turn out the way you want them to. things take time, you can't rush anything.

just don't give up.
do it for me.

please?

an uphill struggle

i'm not allowed to be happy, am i?
thank you for that lovely "fuck you, hetty." this morning.

IT'S MONDAY. FML.

i was really out of it today. my eyes felt bloodshot and i had a hard time responding to people. bit strange eh? my back currently ACHES LIKE A BITCH and my hair is soaked. i'm freezing.

3 minutes later..

i just helped one of me mum's friend carry a vacuum cleaner out to her car. turns out, i'm stronger than i thought. so tomorrow's tuesday, and i hate tuesdays very very much. BUT! tomorrow is a special tuesday. tomorrow is mine and tania's fat tuesday! i am excited.
OH BTW! i have a new muse. his name's matthew goli~

what the motherfucking shit?

must
dig
hole
and
crawl
inside
come
out
394857
years
in
future
@__@

SDFLJASLFJASL;FJ GOD MOTHER FUCKER WHY DOES THIS ALWAYS HAPPEN TO ME? so fucking stupid. i should stop beating myself up for it. i mean after all, i can't help it.. it's just that, it's pretty much the same thing happening all over again, different faces. i guess second best is all i will know.

beyonce-halo

a year ago today, you broke me. a year ago today, i didn't know what to do. a year ago today, i felt so alone.. 365 days later, it all still feels the same.

and i really

just can't help wondering how you play it cool while i'm helplessly falling for you..

maybe

it's true, i'm all up on you
maybe there's a chance that you're stuck on me toooooo~

so apparently, i make it obvious, and that's a good thing? iderno i'm still just going with my gut on this. let's just hope i can trust what my gut. i'm not as worried about it as i usually am, but the iiick feeling is still there you know? whatever, i'll get through this soon enough. goodnight.

will play for smiles

thank god the week is almost over. i hate finals. i'm not looking forward to tomorrow. all hot and sweaty after fizz ed, and he has to be in perfect view of me (if that made sense). lord, take me now.


i took the polaroid down in my room
i'm pretty sure you have a new girlfriend
it's not as if i don't like you
it just makes me sad whenever i see it
'cause i like to be gone most of the time
and you like to be home most of the time
if i stay in one place, i lose my mind
i'm a pretty impossible lady to be with

just some thoughts.

it bothers me how some people are completely unaware of their affect on others. are you that blind? can't you see it's hurting me? i know you can do better, and i wish you'd just give me a chance but at the same time i don't because then i'd just be intruding but idontknow i just can't stand to see you get hurt again and sldfkjsakldf ARRGH i hate myself right now. <.<

^ I LIKE THE SOBE STICKER <3

^ that one's PERFECT O;

oh man i can't wait to drive illegally, hah. SHIT my tooth hurts again. where in the hell is angela's orajel <.<

11:11

i'm still here for you, if you only cared..

let me know, do i still got time to grow?
things ain't always set in stone
that being, now let me know
seems like streetlights glowing
happened to be just like moments passing
in front of me so i hopped in the cab
and i paid my fares
see, i know my destination, but i'm just not there in the streets.
i'm just not there.
life's just not fair.

no really, i'm fine

okay, maybe i'm just a little jealous..

what i learned today

some people are just really stupid.

confused.

asljfdl;sakfjsa i can't even put this shit into words, fuck. i know it's wrong, but why does it feel so right ? you make me happy, but i know that you shouldn't. i don't want this. i don't want the fact you make me happy. i don't want the fact that i'm always smiling when i'm talking to you. i don't want the fact that i see you as more than a friend, when we're supposed to be just that. just friends. ugh, fuck you taylor swift, why did your song have to come on right NOW? -__- gah i don't know what to think. whatevers, this is too much for me right now.

'night.

-

TODAY = FAIL.
Just a big bag of fail.

let's get away...

find our own country.

releasing bottled up rage

fuck broken space bars fuck headaches fuck antidepressants fuck curfews fuck twilight fuck english projects fuck religion fuck war fuck carpet stains fuck late night talk shows fuck beat up sandals fuck incomplete algebra assignments fuck previews fuck raves fuck typos fuck broken crayons fuck crosswalks fuck fuck peer pressure fuck tough love fuck subliminal advertising fuck beer bellies fuck corporate lobbyists fuck nostalgia fuck backtracking fuck gps systems fuck traffic fuck slow work days fuck the economy fuck popups fuck ethical values fuck coffee in a cardboard cup fuck mass media fuck physical education fuck windy days fuck teleparents fuck 4/20 fuck love letters fuck politics fuck liberal viewpoints fuck t-mobile fuck lousy paint jobs fuck you

mitchell davis is god

what do you say we leave for new york?

we don't need a map, and you can throw your phone away
if we drive all night, we can make it before the morning
and no one has to know if we decide to go

teddy geiger

Forgive me if I st-stutter from all of the clutter in my head
'Cause I can fall asleep in those eyes like a waterbed
Do I seem familiar? I've crossed you in hallways a thousands times
No more camouflage I wanna be exposed and not be afraid to fall
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
and cannonball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
You always want what you can't have but I've got to try
Gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will.

life sucks and then you die

ugh, i feel absolutely terrible. physically AND mentally. i screwed things up, and i have no idea how the hell i'm gonna fix them. (*#$&^dklfajs*&^($ thank god for danny, i dont know what i'd do without him. but, i guess i'll just go with it, and see what happens. after all, everything happens for a reason.. right?
and to top it all off, i'm dead tired. i need to catch up on my sleep, i've been lacking. i guess i'll try to sleep early tonight if i can.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
oh no, a1 homework and english paper. sniff.

let's drive to LA

disappointment.

to be honest, i have no clue what's going to come next and i'm not sure if i want to. i just want things back to the way they were before all this shit happened.

hello insomnia~

lucy left her chapstick at my place, it smells like eggnog. my room is a complete utter mess, beads EVERYWHEERREE and bracelets scattered all over my bed . ive still got a huge pile of clothes to sort before i get to bed and my head hurts like a biitchh. argh. i hate sundays.

i can't find my dog tag anywhere.. |:

panicpanicpanicpanicpanic i swear i have ocd, or something of the sort, it bothers me to no end when i can't find something!

this is awkward

but i like it.

how trippy

LKAJFY&(W$Y^TSD i catn type right nwo. ist too late adn im too lazzy to fix my typos. hgih typing and drnuk dialing. make the world go ronud @____@ agian, too lazy to fxi tpyos. that is all.
OH AAAAAND its past mdinihgt and my mum still isnt' hmoe. <.< shes doign it again..

you stepped on my asian!!

as you may have noticed, i deleted all my blogs from 08 except one , dunno felt like i needed a new start. so i baked a cake today, yes another one but i ate it all before i could get any pictures .
now my breath smells gross and i feel like throwing eggs at stuff. i can't believe its not midnight yet, i could've sworn i've been awake for more than 12 hours. i have the strangest urge to get up and do hula dancing. prEtTy cr3eEpY eH? <.<

i found that on my computer a while back, brought back lotsa memories.